A thousand Miles apart

a thousand miles apart
by ashley l. parcell

ASHLEY:
I love you
But you went away
You had no choice
but to move on my birthday

We are a thousand miles apart
but we are connected by our hearts
we live a far distance
but our loe is still intense
our love fills our empty space
but how I long to touch your face
I would walk that thousand miles
Just to see your smile

CASSEY:
You mean the world to me
I want to make you see
I am sorry I went away
I am sorry I ruined your birthday

We are a thousand miles apart
but we are connected by our hearts
we live a far distance
but our love is still intense
our love fills our empty sapce
How I long to hold your face
I would walk a thousand miles
just to make you smile

CASSEY:
I hope you know
that I love you so
I always will
for I need you still
I hope you feel the way I feel
one day, on my knee I'll kneel
I'll propose
and I suppose
that you will see
you mean the world to me

CASSEY:
Now I am on this plane
to come back and heal your pain
to get you back
and get our love back on track

Now we are inches apart
and i lie safely in your heart
I have proven my innocence
for our love is so intense
now our bodies fill that empty space
as I kiss and hold your face
Baby, i flew back a thousand miles
just to see your smile

Cassey, baby, even though we are a thousand miles apart
you will always have a space in my heart

Brandon

Brandon
By Ashley L. Parcell

The first time I met you
I laughed at you for being coo-coo
I knew you were something special
but I never thought we would be more than pals

You always make me laugh
until it feels like my ribs are going to crack in half
When I am with you I almost always smile
a smile you can see for miles

I am happy when we are together
and everything arounds us becomes a blur
I stare in to you beautiful golden blue eyes
and my love for you I can't deny

It is hard to be away from you
I hate to say goodbye, toodle-oo
Between you and jason
there is no comparison

We both have our flaws
but it's nothing we can't handle cause
together we stand strong
and together we belong

baby I love you
and you love me too
We make others jealous
because they look like crap compared to us

Why did love come to us

Why Did Love Come to Us
Written by Ashley Parcell

Why is it so?
How can it be?
that love came to us weeks ago,
it came to you and me

I don't know how
love came to us
I look at our relationship and say wow
our hearts were meant for each other, love is a must

I don't regret
falling in love with you
or that we met,
for we are the perfect two

I don;t know how GOD does it
how he choses the best person for someone
its like the candles in our hearts are lit
then GOD's work is done

I have fallen in love with you
over and over
when our love falters, it's only for a few
for you are my lover

I haven't figured out
why I love you
How did our love come about?
i don't know why I love you, I just do.

Jason, I love you

Jason, I love you

Written by Ashley Lynn Parcell

Dedicated to Jason Charles Crooms



You probably wonder why I love you

because I sometimes wonder too.

But I have a few reasons,

that don't change with each season.

First off, I love your smile,

and how it makes you look so juvenile.

I always love to tickle,

because your laugh makes my body prickle.

Your laugh is music to my ears,

and it makes me want to hold you dear.

I love you to hug you

and I never want to say adieu.

I love it when you whisper in my ear,

so no one else can hear.

It makes me feels wonderful,

when you tell me all your secrets because I am trustful,

or when you tell me I am beautiful.

It makes me feel grateful,

that you're my man,

and you love me because you can.

I love it when you become Jay-Jay and get romantic

for I love being your sexy chick

You are the best guy

that GOD could ever supply

and to GOD I pray

That we will be together everyday

I love being a part of your life

and maybe someday I will be your wife

No One knows, but God what will happen

but I hope we never part again

Jason, happy 18th birthday and I love you

I know now that you love me too.

Our Love

Our Love
Written By Jason Charles Crooms
Dedicated to Ashley Lynn Parcell

My Love for you is strong and true
because our words are said and due
The dew on the flower,
can't express the power
that the flour of our love is true.
There are a few who know who they love,
but just like a dove, I cry sweet
dream,
for you and me to bond to one another,
you don't know the expression,
but the passion that burns inside of me.
I am a bird trying to break free,
for the time to escape has finally come.
You live for the day I say I love you,
but our division keeps the love in the box.
Like a fox hunts,
I hunt for us to be together.
The dove of love has come and gone,
but my love for you is still strong.
Separation clouds the future,
with the past surronding us.
New memories come and go,
but our love shows.
Through thick and thin,
we are there to grin because we're
there just like a fair that never
leaves.
Thieves have taken what is true,
but there is still me and you.
The dove shows our love will stay,
with nothing to say, we are happy as
we watch the stars pass.
Past gone, future here,
our love will never disappear.

How PHP Changed My Life

How PHP Changed My Life
Written By Ashley Lynn Parcell

My life has changed,
since I came to the program.
My life has been rearranged.
Crossroads and my parents are the only ones who gave a damn

My peers influenced me a lot,
and made me feel like I belonged.
They've stirred up memories I 've forgot,
ones I 've forgotten for so long.

Amanda understands some of my past,
and became one of my good friends.
The impact she made will always last.
I will remember our talks till the end.

Brittany would sit and chat,
to me about anything.
We would laugh at stuff like a bug going splat,
and talk about what the future will bring.

I don't really talk to Ben,
but he seems like a pretty nice kid.
He talks in groups now and then,
though he hasn't opened up about what he did.

Cassie and I weren't close at first,
but after I opened up, she gave good feedback.
She helped my wall of silence burst,
and she hasn't cut me any slack.

Chris is my friend,
and he has some drug issues.
Sometimes I wish the drugs would end.
We have many different views.

Creed has shown his family bothers him,
and so do mine.
Sometimes he seems pretty grim.
but he is very kind.

Darryl helped me out through laughter,
he made me laugh when ever I was sad.
He taught me life aint always happily ever after,
and Darryl helped me calm down when I get mad.

Donald and I share issues together,
Like when it comes to Koko and Jeff, my stepdad.
Sometimes we talk about forever,
and how our past actions were real bad.

Kara and I don't always get along
but her stepdad and my dad sound the same
We haven't been together that long
She has been open since she came

Mike and I are a lot alike
He acts like I did when I came in
I used to be as stubborn as Mike
I thinks he throws his feeling in the trash bin

Staff have also made an impact on me,
and how I react now.
They remind me of how I used to be
With my progress, they say wow!!

Shannon has taught me,
a lot since I have been here.
She taught me to be consistent in therapy,
and helped me love the person in the mirror.

James, and Rob have helped me find,
what I am capable of,
and told me not to keep in all inside my mind.
They taught me how to love.

Megan and I have gone around,
a time or two.
She helped me smile instead of frown.
And she helped me solve and issue or a few.

PHP has helped me
and I am proud of who I have become
They have shown what I can be
Now I look in the mirror and say Holy Cow!

Why, GOD, Why? part 1

Why, GOD, Why? Part 1
Written By Ashley Lynn Parcell

Why do people have to lie?
Why do people have to die?
Why do dreams not always come true?
Why do people say I love you?

Why do people love?
Why is peace represented with a dove?
Why is life full of sin?
Why do pepole throw babies in trash bins?

Why do people kill themselves or others?
Why do people do drugs together?
Why do alcoholics drink?
Why do we have to blink?

Why do people have to become ill?
Why is there so much roadkill?
Why do teens have babies?
Why do children pick daisies?

Why are people filled with hate?
Why do couples go on dates?
Why do we have wars?
Why do we kick in our doors?

Why is the world filled with hurt?
Why do flowers grow in the dirt?
Why do we go to school?
Why do teens try to act cool?

Why do guys have hot bods?
Why do we believe in you GOD?
Why do we have to pray?
Why do we live everyday?

Why Did You Go?

Why Did You Go?
Written By Ashley Lynn Parcell

Another day has gone by
without you here.
I never got to say goodbye.
I had no clue that your death was so near.

Why did you have to go?
Why did you have to die?
Did you know how much I loved you so?
Why did you commit suicide?

You promised you would never hurt me,
But you did.
From your problems, you thought you would flee.
Why did you have to hurt me, I was just a kid

I understand,
that some warning signs went unnoticed.
But you made my happiness blow away like sand.
Hurting me, you must insist.

I miss you so much,
and I always think of you, Auntie Who
My hands and your will never again touch
I hope you hurt like I do.

I will never forget,
how you were always there for me.
Your choice, I hope you regret.
May my pain never go away peacefully.

Why, GOD, Why part 2

Why, GOD, Why? Part 2
Dedicated to Jason Charles Crooms
Written By Ashley Lynn Parcell

Bipolar, why was it created GOD?
Why did you give it to Jason and me?
Why did you make us odd?
Why couldn't we live free?

We are so sweet most of the time,
but so full of anger and hurt.
Our life is like a game of battleship.
We are as limited as a horse on a bridal.

Why are we this way?
What did we do?
Why is our world all gray?
Can't we be normal too?

Why did you make me see things,
That aren't really there?
If I could only stop it this evening,
How do I live this nightmare?

Why did you give bipolar to Jay-Jay?
He is the nicest kid I know
Why is life a game he plays?
Where is his freedom, his rainbow?

Why is it GOD, when we get lost,
and we can't find our way,
It feels like we are punished at all costs,
almost everyday?

Jason, I am sorry,
And I still ask GOD why,
We flip out in a quarry
and sometimes want to die.

Raindrops On My Face

Trying to love someone
Who just don't feel the same?
Trying to make somebody love you
Only results in pain
And trying to understand
Only starts the rain
Raindrops on my face

Seeing him with someone else
When you want him with you
Seeing him engaged to her
When you almost said "I do"
And trying to understand
Starts the rain too
Raindrops on my face

Raindrops on my face
Pouring from my eyes
Raindrops on my face
As I start to cry
Slowly I am falling to the ground
With all my pain all around
Raindrops on my face

Seeing the way he looks at her
And how he looked at you that way
Seeing him hang on her every word
And how he once heard what you had to say
Realizing he might never understand
Begins the rain that day
Raindrops on my face

Raindrops on my face
Pouring from my eyes
Raindrops on my face
As I start to cry
Slowly, I hit the ground
With all my pain all around
Raindrops on my face

Then someone new comes along
And he sees your face
You start to fall in love
As he watches someone take his place
And your happiness helps you both understand
It starts the rain and fills your empty space
Raindrops on my face

Raindrops on my face
Pouring from my face
Raindrops on my face
As I laugh until I cry
Suddenly I am up off the ground
As happiness and love surround all around
Raindrops on my face